11.29.2007

i aspire

I aspire to go to Pilates at 7 tonight.
Right now I am on the fence. But I aspire to go.

There is no reason I can't, except for my own laziness.

I also aspire to do the SantaMonica xmas fun run next Saturday. Maybe just the 5k. Can't commit to that yet- but I aspire.

:-)

11.28.2007

i wanted to throw up

so i survived spinning. i have never ever "spun" before. and i injured myself. it hurts to type. i screwed something up in my wrist in the last 10minutes of stretching OFF the bike. who knew. BUT i am so freakin proud of myself!

i don't often have to call on my mantra of "I survived 26.2 miles, I can survive THIS!" ... but i used it today- at around 40 minutes in, when i wanted to throw up it was so hard.

the instructor was SUPER nice and talked me thru everything. i am weak and suck and can't stand for as long as everyone else but i did it in my own time and pace and people high-fived me at the end. i think the instructor was just impressed i stuck it out the whole hour. she said people have left 10minutes in before. so that made me happy.

both of my parents have commented on my weightloss journey- but you know- they're parents- they're required to be supportive. my favorite change that i wait for is the collar bone change. for me, i can really tell i'm losing weight when i wear something scoop-necked and you can see the definition of the collar bone. that is my fave.

apparently working out makes you feel good. i forgot about that. must. go. more. often.

oh and also, while i knew my parents & grandparents names were on the walls somewhere- I didn't know mine was. NOR did i know it was on the aerobics room in fact. i might have to start using the other door or go by another name. it's so embarassing.

but i vow to go back again next week. i WILL.

11.27.2007

Paranoia

I'm tracking all my points. And I even have a few left over at the end of each day. But I'm doing less well on the water consumption. And I don't "feel" like I'm losing this week. There is nothing to blame it on... and what if I don't see a loss this week? That will be sad for me. I am NOT going to self-sabotage about it. That is my favorite thing to do. I will stick to the plan even if I am second guessing it right now.

Mainly, how do you follow up a 6.2 loss? I can't. I have to accept the joy of "beginner's luck" on the WW plan and suck up the fact that I probably will not lose AS much as last week but that it'll still be just as good.

Oh, also, I am addicted to watching The Biggest Loser. I feel like I am staring in my own reality show these days I am so committed to this now. I'm taking better care of myself and I am SO happy that I am doing it. I refuse to give it up. Taking care of myself is going to allow me to be happier in every other aspect of my life.

I'm going to SPINNING 101 w/ my cousin Nicole tomorrow at 9a.m. That will be a trip, as I am accompanying her to the JCC (aka- the Long Beach Alpert Jewish Community Center). My family's names litter the walls of this place. Along w/ the names of childhood friends' families. It is weird to walk into the JCC and yet I think it is a really good connection for me to have right now- both personally for fitness, and for business. I am really going to dislike walking in tomorrow, but it'll be fun to see my little 2nd cousins off to preschool and it'll be good to get some exercise in. And it'll be nice to do it in a really cool facility for a really cheap price so I take solace in that. Who knows? Maybe I'll meet a nice Jewish boy and get swept off my feet, married, and be taking my kids to preschool in the blink of an eye.

Let's be honest now... the weightloss is for me. But it is ALL wrapped up in notions I have about both my love and sex life. More on that another time.

:)

11.25.2007

I lost 6.2lbs this week!

I lost 6.2 lbs this week! I was thrilled. This is the 1st week I have worked at my weight-loss in a long long time. I "recommitted" to Weight Watchers on 9/8/07, but was gaining and losing the same 3lbs over and over. Then, I went bridesmaid dress shopping and suddenly, I was back on the weight watchers plan. I stuck to my "points" and drank lots and lots water. And apparently it worked. :) I was so happy. I even survived the counting of points (ie- tracking of calorie, fat & fiber intake) through Thanksgiving. WooHoo.

This week- I went grocery shopping and stocked my house full of veggies and healthy foods. I noticed I don't eat many fruits and vegetables. So this week, in addition to drinking all my water, I aspire to get in at least 3 servings of veggies each day. But I don't want to lose what I was doing before. So I will go slowly. One day at a time. I spent a lot on groceries tho- so I hope that will commit me to eating at home. I do not need to eat out. If I want to see friends, I will just invite them over for dinner. There is no excuse of me to "eat out" this week. I have no plans to do so which means I can control it.

I can't wait to report a total loss of 10 pounds lost since September 8th, next Saturday.
I weigh-in every Saturday so that's probably about when I'll be posting to this.

I'm going to try to add photos along the way. I am the queen of cropping my fat self out of pix as much as possible. But here, I will post the full versions that will hopefully, eventually, show a new self emerging.