it will get easier.

I'm going to gain this week. I have accepted it. I am up on my home scale. And I'm eating within my points but I'm not really exercising. I'm not derailing and eating anything and everything as I would have in the past; I'm just dealing with it and basically can't wait for the week to start anew on Saturday morning.

Usually if I have a bad week, it follows with a pretty good week- so I am looking forward to NEXT week. I still plan to hit my first 10% loss before the end of February.

I've made some serious progress this week despite the numbers on the scale. I've figured a lot out about myself and how I function and why- more than I can even chronicle here. So if the price is a gain this week so that I can keep moving forward in the future- I think it will be worth it.

This is where I've stopped in the past because there is work to be done here that I didn't want to touch... but I am now...

I think I'm only going to start sounding more mental here as this goes on.
I like to say about that marathon- anyone can run a marathon, but you have to really want to do it. And that took more mental strength than it did physical strength, in the end.

The first 20 lbs has been like a warm-up run. You think it's hard at the time, but you have no idea what lies ahead of you. It's like the "easy breezy" 8miler runs that gets to be cake in the end, but at the beginning, you can't believe you've covered 8 miles. And you hurt. Or- you think you do. You don't really know what pain is yet, but it's good you don't know- or you wouldn't keep showing up to do the work.

It's going to be like that with the weight-loss. Each new level is going to seem hard, until I hit the next one.

I think another comparison can be made... when I started marathon training, I'd have a few drinks early in the week before my run. But as the runs got longer, and longer, and still longer, I cut that out entirely- even if it was one beer on a Monday - because it just wasn't worth the pain when I was gonna feel it on that long run on Saturday. These setbacks are kind of like that. Eventually, I'll remember the "pain" of going thru this week and I'll stop slipping up on crappy food and it will get easier.

At least, that's what I'm telling myself today: it will get easier.